Are women truely saved BY childbearing?

I say no. I had my tubes removed for birth control, and I am not going to Hell. I am saving myself for marriage as Jesus told me too, but when I marry a man, I will not want to be a mother to my own children. I love children so very much that I am honest enough to admit I would be a bad mother. Besides, my life saving medications cause birth defects, so pregnancy could be life threatenining. I am personally opposed to abortion, so this I feel was the best choice for me in light of my Christian faith. Not all people who are childless and choose to be sterilized are child haters. We just don't want to be parents. Besides, most of my mental problems are genetically passed on, and I just can't have a sick baby, even if I was healthy enough to have a baby.